..I've learned along the way..

"Jesus looked at him and said, "how hard is it for the rich to enter the kingdom of God?" Luke 18:24

My church youth group started "The Game Plan" last year to help all of us focus our prayers on something specific two a day everyday of the week. We had two prayers, one in the morning and one at night, and a task for the day. I won't give you every day in detail but I will tell you that every week our group had to bible versus' to read and then at youth group week discussed them as a group. Every week I kept a journal of what I thought my verse meant and recently I found one of the entries I had written about this verse. 

The question we were discussing was "What is one thing you could give up to help another?"

Here is my journal entry from April, 25 2012:

When we talked about this the very first thing that popped into my head was not a car or a cell phone or anything electronic.. My mind went went straight to my bunny and blanket I sleep with every night because honestly.. I could live with out all that other stuff but the thought of giving up my bunny and blanket that are my security was heart wrenching, mind blowing. They have been in my life every night since the day I was born.. I can't just give them away.. even to help someone.. This was a hard concept to wrap my brain around. Then I started to think.. Not even for the little boy in Africa? (if you know me  at all you know about the little boy that changed my life) As I thought of this my mind changed as I remembered what God showed me that day in those big brown eyes. That I was called to help people in need, and not just people; children. So I there for decided that while it would be hard I could give away all my "things" my security blankets included to help people who are in need. So while I may have many "material" things in my possession the two things that matter most just happen to be a raggedy bunny and a pink blanket. For now that's all the more "material" I really need to be happy..

Reading this months later brought tears to my eyes.. I have grown so much since then... yet still my bunny and blanket are my most prized possession.. but for that little boy in Africa.. and anyone else in need.. I would give them up in a heart beat to see a smile on another persons face.. Knowing that just a simple little something.. made a huge difference.. 

Peace and Love, 

Teal Morgan.

My Life at a Glance :)

Just a quick check in.

I few weekends ago I was finally initiated into my lovely sorority Alpha Xi Delta and I could not be happier! I have found a place to call home and about 70 lovely ladies to call my sisters!! 

I also received the best and most gorgeous Big ever, Her name is Lauren and I could not have asked for a better person to share every aspect of my life with! We love to joke with each other but at the end of the day I know I can come to her with any thing in life, good or terrible and she'll be there no matter what! I know she will be there to share all my laughter and tears through out the rest of my life and I am grateful I get the chance to know her!! :) (I'm really hoping she reads this so I get brownie points ;) )

in other news.. finals are coming up.. ohh joy.. I plan on being in the library for the next three weeks trying to keep Anatomy, Psychology and Soundscapes separate while I'm studying my life away. Good news though.. once I'm done with those I get to spend an ENTIRE month at home! I just know Karebear is soooo excited about that! She has just loved me being home this week for Thanksgiving! ;) We have even gotten the Snowman Army out... They are officially taking over the Erhardt Home.. YIKES!

In December I will also be venturing to Cancun with my family and my second family the Fishes.. this should be a great trip! and I can't wait to lay on a beach for an entire week after enduring my first week of college finals! What I great way to end my first semester!! :)

That's about all that is currently going on in my life.. but I'm sure I'll  be back soon with some more news! Until then have a great Christmas and New Years if you don't hear from me until then!! 

Grace and Love,

Teal Morgan.

RAWR!! Imma Panther! ;) meow.

A few weeks ago I started my new journey as a college student! I know.. Weird huh?

Well my journey started with moving my life into a small room that I had to share with a girl I had never met. Her name Casie, from a town far far away. Well after unpacking and repacking the things that would not fit in my small quarters I found myself alone in a very strange place. I spent my first night alone in a hot box of a dorm room. Yuck. 

To say the least I am now settled in and making do with what little space I have. sharing it with the best random roommate I could have asked for. (We are both the same weird, which a good thing! :) ha!)

 

Now we come to classes.. Well as a pre-nursing major my life is basically spent studying my tushy off at what I tell my father is "The Library" ;) Anatomy is a handful but I love it none the less. Jeff - Fa- Fa of course taught me everything I need to know to pass.. (the knee bone is connected to the leg bone..the leg bone is connected to the foot bone ect..) As you can see I will pass with flying colors! As for my other classes I will say that my time in the musically inclined Waverly - Shellrock school district did prepare me for my Soundscapes Music Course.. Mr. V. would be glad to here that watching the "Ski Slope" helped me learned to conduct! :) I find my Psych class is pretty interesting and I enjoy it very much! I now know how to control my family and friends (watch out) thanks to Pavlov's Dogs.. (another thanks to Jeff on that knowledge.) College writing and research has turned into much of a politics class... which I know nothing about.. but I'm learning!! :) So in general my classes are good.. Challenging but that makes me smarter!

Also during my journey down college lane I decided to do Sorority Formal Recruitment... and got a Bid from the lovely Alpha Xi Delta Sorority, Of which Karebear was also a part of! :) Yay being a legacy! Whoot! I now have over 60 new friends.. and yes that is a lot of names to learn.. and I have done a great job! I enjoy being a part of something on campus and cannot wait to do more with my AmaXIng Sisterhood! :)

Welp.. heres a little insight of my first few weeks as a Panther! :) Following in Jeff- Fa- Fa and Karebear's footsteps! :) 

Lawther Love;

Teal Morgan <3

A Time for Laughter, Joy, and Tears..

Today, my fellow peers and I will walk a crossed a stage to receive our diplomas. Something we have work hard for our whole lives especially the past four years. While I would much rather avoid the heat and the hideous grad caps I am excited to end a chapter in my life and begin a new one. As a freshman I never thought I would see this day come, it was just something my sister did not actually something I would ever get to. Boy did my dreams change this year. I hadn't actually thought about being a senior until my last week of school when I realized I wouldn't be walking down those "lovely" hallways everyday come Friday.. Scary thought to have when you're almost done. I stopped thinking about it until this moment..right here.. the day of my graduation.. Holy Crap, this is happening..


Needless to say I was up at 5 this morning going through all the things I have done as a high schooler and all the things I will be doing as a freshman in college next year! Crazy! 


My hair may not like the 93 degree weather today but my spirits are high with anticipation of whats to come. So with crazy curly hair and a smile from ear to ear I will enjoy this day because I have worked hard to get here and know amount of sweat is going to get me down!


I am ready for today, embarrassing photos and all! Lets get this show on the road!! :)


Thanks for supporting me and standing by my side Class of 2012, Lets Show Them Whose Boss! ;)


YOLO!


~Teal Morgan

Nina Kupenda.. I Love You.

About two years ago I went to Africa. And if you know me at all you know that it was the trip that changed my life.. I will not be the first on to say that high school was the easiest part of my life.. It most definitely was not. I wasn't the person who knew who she was, what she was meant to do and who her friends were. I went on this trip with an open mind hoping God would help me figure out my purpose in life at least a little bit..

God did so much more then I could have ever asked for. Not only did I find out who I was , God also showed me what my calling in life was. I was meant to help people .. Whether thats healing their sickness or just listening to their stories that's what I want to do. When a little boy was Set on my lap it was a sign from God that this was what he called me to do.

So it goes to say that when I found out that a group was going back to Taz. This summer for a building project I wanted to go.. There was one little problem. As a senior there is something we like to call graduation day.. That is one day before they are to come home so I cannot attend the trip. Needless to say I was one very distraught 17 year old girl.. Yes the one thing I want to do more then anything in the world is not possible because I have to walk across a stage.. not one of my more happy moments.. But I have to show up just to tell the people that didn't believe in me one thing.. "hey! I did it suckas!" because that moment will be glorious!

So to wrap this story up I will have to wait another year to go back to my home but hey at least I'm going back at all! And hopefully with Karebear by my side. So even though I am sad I am not going. It's okay because God has plans for me and I know they will lead me back to the part of my I left in Tanzania someday to do what he calls me to do!

~Teal Morgan

Music For My Life.

I get a lot of inspiration from music as music is the biggest part of my life. Today i was listening to Pandora thinking about somethings that have happened in my life lately and a song came on that was literally like what I am going through right at this moment. I have never been so struck by a song so strongly that I thought I needed to blog about it right then but to day I do. the song is called NightMinds but Missy Higgins and Normally I would have never just listened to one of her songs but Pandora chooses some pretty good songs that I normally wouldn't give a second glance. Anyway. i started to listen to the lyrics and thought Hey.. Me and My friend are kind of going through something like this.. trying to help each other out of a dark place in our past or present and making sure it doesn't get into our future. It hit me like a brick and so I looked up the full lyrics and started to read them and I thought.. Hmm.. I need to share this with anyone I can.. Granted not a whole lot of people read my blog.. The people that count do and if someone randomly stumbles upon this maybe it will help them too. The lyrics that stuck out to me are these..

"But I will learn to breathe this ugliness you see,
So we can both be there and we can both share the dark.
And in our honesty, together we will rise,
Out of our nightminds, and into the light
At the end of the fight..."

Going though a hard time by yourself is most defiantly like going into a darkness. You can't find away out and it eats you up inside and then in front of people you have to act like nothing is going on because you think they will judge you or that they wouldn't understand. Until the day.. nearly FOUR YEARS later I finally found someone who might understand... What I was going through.. What I was thinking. So I told her. and to my amazement someone I knew finally understood how hard somethings in life are and how much somethings just need to be done but how hard they can be if you truly care about what you have to do. I waited longer then I should have to get rid of this demon and now I know if I meet another girl like me I will not let it get as far as me. No one deserves it and they need to get out of that situation as fast and as soon as possible. I am vowing now to never let something like this happen to me again. I know the signs and i can tell when something isn't right. I know how to get out before I get in too deep. While it still hurts to this day I know in my heart that I did the right thing.

having someone that actually knew what I was going through made me see that I can't always do everything by myself. That talking and telling people might actually have been a better way to go about it. I know that now. I'm just glad I'm safe now and So is she. I'll find my way back to not hurting as much..it might take some time but I have amazing people in my life to help me along the way and I'm willing to bet I will meet a whole lot more. For now I'm content just knowing that.

Until we meet again;

~Teal Morgan.

An angel from God

A new girl came to our school 8th grade year.. She was pretty cool and we became friends. That friendship has recently developed into something I would have never thought it would. I can honestly say this girl is one of my best friends. I truly believe that God sent her my way to lead me into a life of knowing who he is. I have never felt so great about myself before. I feel like a new me has formed. I want to thank you Rachel Quast.. For being my light in a darkness I never thought was going to leave. I don't even think you know how much you have done for me. I am truly blessed to have such a great friend like you to help me in my walk of faith. So thank you and I love you!

~Teal Morgan

..My Heart Cries Out to You..

Yesterday I started doing a bible study with two of my close friends. At first I was scared because I didn't really know what I was doing but after reading a story and starting a discussion about what God's plan is for me I came to this conclusion. God has a plan for me that plan is to help people. I wasn't sure at first what that meant.. okay I want to be a nurse sure and I want to help people in Africa yeah.. but what does God really have planned for me? well I thought about it a lot after our discussion and I simply that that he wants me to help people just like I thought. I think God wants me to help people see who he is through how I act and live my faith. I also think that God wants me to become a nurse and take what I learn and help as many people as I can. I pray that I will be able to fulfill what God has planned for me and that even when it's hard I let him lead me through. I also hope that through the hard times I don't turn my back to God when something doesn't seem to go right or in my favor.. "for I know that plans I have for you" Declares the Lord. "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and future." Jeremiah 29:11 <3

~Teal Morgan

My Walk of Faith..

I keep hearing people talking about their walk of faith.. at first I had no idea what the heck that was.. but I wanted to start walkin' that's for sure. Before a couple years ago I never gave faith much of a thought. I went to church and youth group and that was it. Then I started getting older and asking questions about what I believed and what I wanted my life to reflect. Faith became a hugee question in my life. What was my faith? Was I living the way God wanted me to? What could I change? So many questions that I had no answers for. until.. I had a long discussion about God with my good friend. She knew her God and was living her life with him as a main focus. I was completely lost. How the heck did people even get God into their lives? I spent many nights lying in bed just thinking about how God had made an impact on my life. Then I remembered.. I was in Africa in the middle of a wildlife preserve, in a princess bed, talking about what faith was and how to live it out in everyday life. I didn't pay much thought to it then as I was only 16. Now a year later at 17 I wanna know Him and I want God in my life from now on. My new years resolutions changed from lose some weight, meet new friends, get good grades to find a person to help me in my walk of faith, start a one on one bible study, pray for things, let God into my heart for good, let Him take care of me because I can't do it all by myself.. I learned that the hard way. I have had a rough last couple of years but I know that God has a plan for me if I let Him lead me. I was scared at first but then I thought I need this. This will be good for me. My whole attitude about life changed. I was no longer just living for me I was living for God. 

So from now on my life will be for God. I want to know Him and learn from Him and through him. I want God to have complete control. I'm letting go. He knows his plans for me and I know that I can trust in Him. He is my rock. He will always be with me.. even when others aren't. Scared and vulnerable I give myself to Him. I'm ready to see what he has to give me. I'm ready for the challenge, and I know I have many people who will help me through my walk. I'm taking it one step at a time. 

"I can do all things through Christ whom gives me strength." - Philippians 4:13

Love,

Teal Morgan.